Hmm....so apparently, I am dating Ly. Err...have been, for a little over a month (the 23rd, I believe)....so....yeaaahhh =O
Well, the kiss came on the 23rd when his sister took us to the mall to go shopping for his prom stuff, along with his little skater cousin + skater cousin's little bro WHO IS SO ADORABLE <3 kenny...T__T hahah.
Kenny, though I only saw him for a span of two hours, went emo twice LOL...
ahh well, after we went shopping, we skated in front of his cousin's house for a while...then Kenny peed on the kitchen floor so he and alan were stuck in the house HAHAHa...ahh, I remember so clearly....
so we skated to my house....D:....I snuck him in...we started wrestling...and as we were taking a break inbetween our wrestling, I felt lips upon mine =O...and i sorta ignored it for a while...then it was pressed a little more...and then I asked "are those your lips?"
and that foo, Ly, said "...I dont' know.." LOL
then he smooched me again...and again...and somehow, after a while, tongue got in there O__O..........
yeeeaaaaaaaah so he stayed until twelve that night (holy....=O) hahaha.
soooo then prom night came....he stayed over that night....until 3 PM on sunday HAHAHA
well he and I were
we were just making out the whole night....well, I fell asleep after we ate on my bed and he started watching Boondock Saints....then I woke up and he was...excited....so we started making out
and somehow, we started grinding down south and it felt really good....soo goot. hahaha. it did. it felt.... I don't know how to explain it. but it was very sensual =O...
ahhh well...we cuddled a lot...kissed a lot....made out...a lot....grinded a lot...yeeahh =O
many things have happened since then.
I apologized to Lindo and she accepted it...after I fed her cookies and made her chicken wings...but I'm too lazy to upload pictures for now...hahaha.
so...he and I have done it....already =O...it happened last thursday when he was at my house before practice....we just sorta did it. well, we stole "exercising equipment" from my parents...and then we "exercised"....twice...hahah.
we did it again on Sunday....once normally...but I got dry so we tried making me wet but it was no good LOL...had to smuggle lube from my parents to guide us =O...
and we did it up the butt too but....that felt freakin weird for me.....
sometimes I think he only comes over just for sexual relief....sometimes I feel neglected that he's doing other things, but that's because I'm being overly needy. Hahha, I know that. I'm doing my best not to want him so much....
I'm trying to do other things to keep him out of my mind...though I want him so badly.
I'm scared things will turn out the way it did for Linda and him.
I'm scared that I'll be heart broken...and at the same time, he wouldn't feel a thing..
I'm so very scared...and I wish this dream that I'm living will end up as me waking up...and just shaking this off like it's nothing
this Thursday is our transformers date...I hope he can make it....I hope he wants to...
now I must go find things to do without needing him so much....COME ON, KELLY. YOU CAN HANG ON THERE!!!!!!!
YES YOU CAN!! RAWRRR!!
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